Friday, January 7, 2011

The give and take of the practice

It never ceases to amaze me how I can start the day in a very low place yet end it much better.  What did I do to change the mood? Teach. 

Like many women from time to time I get full of self doubt.  Have I made the right decisions in my life?  Should I have stayed home with my kids until the graduated high school and not just through elementary? Everyone makes mistakes, I understand that.  But are they truly mistakes if we learn lessons and improve our lives as a result?  Perhaps.  But if we don't improve our life as a result they certainly were in vain.  I choose to constantly try to do better. 

So somehow on those days where I find myself wallowing in depression all it seems to take is a little yoga practice of my own, or a yoga class to teach, to bring me back to the reality that I am exactly where I should be.  Yesterday was no exception.  My morning class was empty, sometimes when this happens I use the time to focus on my own practice, but I knew what the day held and I decided to pace myself.  After lunch I taught back to back: a private - children's yoga - gentle yoga - and a second private.  Although exhausted at the end I was also full of joy, full enough to prepare dinner for my husband and me on a night where I would have normally ordered something. 

I've come to the conclusion that the practice, either as a student or as a teacher, gives to me everything that I give to it.

Namaste' have a great day

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